What you don’t know.

I don’t have nicknames yet people still try to make it a thing. I have books on my shelf begging to be read yet I still find myself buying more. I doodle often and somehow they all end up looking like I tried to copy a five year old’s finger painting. And failed. When I can’t sleep at night, I go over the following day’s schedule again and again, trying to smooth out wrinkles in my plans. I try to save greeting cards and and letters but I always end up losing them. Actually, I lose a lot of things. When I go into a place with people I know, the grandiosity of my entrance will depend on my energy levels. I don’t look at myself in the mirror that often, but I feel like it is too much. Not because it is a vain or self-absorbed thing to do, but because I feel so much more confident when I’m not constantly reminded of the flaws in my physical appearance. A guilty pleasure I enjoy way too much to give up is internet (not that I have a lot of it, my mobile data is close to non-existent and I have no wifi at home). I read the newspaper almost everyday, skipping most of it but getting really absorbed in articles about things like feminism, LGBTQ+ rights, racism and current politics. The sports section is something that is never even browsed through. I’d like to be less stubborn but that will probably never change. Let’s just pretend it’s a good quality for now.The scariest insect I’ve encountered is a crane fly. Why do you need that many legs? I’m mostly likely to engage confrontation. If I’m upset about something I won’t let it sit, I’d much rather talk about it than pretend it doesn’t bother me. I’m s creature of habit. The last time I pushed my physical limits was so long ago I can’t remember. I have a lot of acquaintances and few very close friends. I think about death a lot, not in a morbid way – more philosophically. It amazes me that turtles have yet to run for presidency yet Donald Trump is a serious candidate. I would prefer someone be straight up with me then to temper their words. I respect propel who are outspoken with their beliefs, as long as they don’t force it upon others. My perfect study arrangement is alone in my room. I sleep on my side. My favourite city is San Juan in Puerto Rico, however, I think many flaws would come to light if I lived there 24/7. Much like anywhere else. Ignorance is not bliss. I don’t think anything is unforgivable but I find it difficult to forgive. It’s even harder to forgive myself for past personal failures. I’m sure I have any convictions I’d be willing to die for. I think it’s extremely important to be honest with yourself. I am a messy person, both literally and figuratively. 


10 thoughts on “What you don’t know.

  1. I find it very difficult to forgive as well…… like, WHY did I let myself go to that bargain book club and buy 20 books that will sit on the shelf until the end of time? I may never forgive myself for that ;P

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  2. persephone2015 says:

    I do exactly the same thing with books! I have so many I haven’t read yet, but I bought two new ones yesterday because I didn’t fancy reading any of the ones I have!

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  3. parisianpages says:

    I have the internet problem , it seems like I can’t quite cu it out no matter my many many atempts . And I jave quick the collection of books but yet I still check a bunch out , and I think this is a really clever way to write an about me if that’s what you were going for . but either way I like this a lot. I’m going to have 3 tests then I’ll read more from you 🙂 . And donal trump ( I don’t care if I spelled the name wrong ) …I don’t even know what to say about him because At this point he’s irrelevant but I just hope he doesn’t end up president .

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    • Yeah internet is such a must, especially when you’re trying to communicate with a wider branch of people. You’re right, Donald Trump is irrelevant. Wow thanks, I really appreciate you taking the time to read and comment! Good luck with the tests! 🙂

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